Flash your heart. I won't mistreat it. I promise.
Narita. 28. Guyanese. Canadian. Christian. Accountant. Doing justly. Loving mercy. Walking humbly.
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Ohhhhhhhhhhh, why do I even bother?
Because I still have hope, that’s why.
Stupid stupid hope. -
Filling my schedule unnecessarily?
This isn’t the first post about life being too hectic, and this is months after the other posts. I think that means life actually is too hectic.
I need to cut something.
Pretty sure of one cut. Not that I actually prayed about it but still, it’s been a long kind of lingering thought.
Might give up corporate taxes. Even though I’ve only done 2. Those 2 alone were headaches and more time spent than I expected.
Aiya. Maybe I just need a good nap and I’ll be ready to go again but for now there is no end in sight at this pace.
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whispering my name. It’s like a wave of understanding and I never could have planned it, when the questions, and doubts all fade away.
- All I Need To Know by Thousand Foot Krutch
Krutch came out with a new album, released yesterday.
Delightfully up to TFK standard.
It is keeping me company whilst I do taxes tonight.Their song alluded to a passage I’ve come to be familiar with as a Christian but have had more of a chance to contemplate tonight upon hearing it through the song.
11And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD. And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the LORD was not in the earthquake:
12And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
13And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?
- 1 Kings 19:11-13
How many times do we try and make sense of the big loud chaos in our lives without first simply observing to see if God is anywhere in it?
God is still present. Still speaking.
Listen.
Carefully. -
Bully.
But such conversations do make for some fun work time distractions.
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- Irene: they write tales of friendships like ours!
- *****
- Devy: but i mean i feel like i know u years now
- decades
- all life
- *****
- Me: I love you
- He: I love you more
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Scion IQ.
I am fascinated by this.
If the fascination lasts a good 6 years then I believe I’ve found my next automobile.
Yay. -
- Him: no
- jesus didnt exist
- hes a tale
- of the white devil
- he is a confusion
- a cancer
- he is zeus
- he is odin
- the devil himself
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Remember losing hope.
Remember feeling low.
Remember all the feelings.
And the day they stopped.- Innocent by Our Lady Peace
So it’s Good Friday today. The day when we remember Christ’s death on the cross and all that lead up to it. The solitary prayers in the garden, the friends that fell asleep in His hour of desperate need for fellowship. The struggle to simply remain silent as accusations were thrown at Him. The scrounging. The bloody bloody scrounging. And the cross. The barbaric gruesome cross.
I went to service today. Sombre. Reflective. Many tears were shed throughout the congregation. I was thinking though, if it wasn’t a cross, if it wasn’t so visually saddening, would we still cry? Would the death of Jesus, by execution, by lethal injection, by any other means, be as stirring to our hearts? His death is still death and His death was still sacrificial.
He died to be punished for our sins.
He died so that we could be in full fellowship with a heavenly Father who requires holiness.
He died because we are not holy and never can be, without Him.He died. Full stop.
But He lives still, for us to live knowing that we’re freed, through His death. Freed from death, from guilt and shame, from regret and a past that we can do nothing to change.
Today I remembered all the feelings, then remembered Christ, the reason those feelings stopped.
(Source: synodik)
